Today’s sermon at Elevation church by the one and only Holly Furtick, pastor Steven Furtick’s wife, heralded just the words I needed to hear, in the structure they were told, by the person who told them ……to culminate in one very metaphoric hammer hitting one metaphoric nail flat in my head.
Sometimes you hear just what you need to hear, not because you want to hear it and your ears and brain are selectively listening for some affirmation of what you’re doing or want to do, but because you often struggle to find the correct combination of words to put your illogical thoughts in logical order. Sometimes I hear something I “need” to hear and its exactly what I don’t want to hear, but I know it to be true. Why? Because its convicting. What causes us to be convicted? Besides that little voice that says, you know this has some ring of truth to it; I think for a born-again Christian, its got to be the Holy Spirit, the complete confirmation of our inherent being. I believe we’re all born with a conviction of what we know to be true and what we know not to be. We’ve been created in the image of the Creator. He’s instilled in us that thing which no other thing on earth can satisfy – a thirst to know Him. As CS Lewis so poignantly puts its, “If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world.” What is this desire? What is the truth? That God is alive. That Jesus died for our sins and alone can satisfy. That we won’t be complete and whole and right until we can rejoin our father in heaven.
As we live longer in this world, we hear and accept all kinds of conflicting messages that tend to get muddled with the truth we always knew we knew. As a result, we end up with a mangled distortion of the raw truth, one that’s got tatters and patches of deceit sewn onto it. And so we go through life hearing bits and pieces of the truth we once knew to be true without a doubt (think…faith like a child), but its become so overwhelmingly engulfed by the torrents and tidal waves of false truths and watered-down truths that we end up feeling confused and conflicted most of the time, wondering why we can’t be assured of our faith or our salvation or even of the God we once believed in. Just like in the popular app game “Draw Something”, the Holy Spirit nudges us every so often to get back in the game. So we go to church or hear a message and the tiny, withdrawn conviction that was huddling in the corner of our soul begins to perk up. It twitches its little ears and rustles up its fur (….because its a cute furry creature…) in anticipation of something familiar, something comforting, something……real. Like your pup or cat gets excited to hear his master and friend coming home…. (okay maybe not cat….)
When your soul feels at odds with your life, is it possible to consider the conviction that the life you’re living is not the one you were meant for? I know in my own life, when I’ve gone off on my own path for too long, Jesus sometimes nudges me, but most of the time I am slapped back into the reality I was meant to live in – and that is one without my complaining, without my prideful claims on life, without my expectations on God and people, and with wholehearted dependence, not on myself and my own ability, but on God. And the funny thing is He always makes it seem like it was my idea to come back to Him. I will probably live a lifetime (at least I hope, God willing), and write a hundred more blog posts of instances where God awakes my soul and stirs me for Him. That’s just the way it is, this Christian life. Like I wrote in my last post, 30 Days of Encouragement, its not all roses and rainbows, the ups are high and the downs are LOW. I’m reminded of the Israelites and their desire to reach the promised land. Every advancement they make is thwarted by their continual pessimism and grumbling. God wanted to get you there in 2 weeks! You made it take 40 years. That’s probably the most encouraging thing I could read to snap me out of my complaining.
To recap the 3 short points Holly made in her “Work While You’re Waiting” sermon (guided by Acts 16:25, Paul and Silas in prison):
1) Resist the urge to complain and fill your situation with praise.
Do everything without grumbling or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, “children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation.” Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky… – Phil 2:15
2) Preoccupy yourself with fulfilling God’s purpose instead of escaping your problem. Don’t run away just yet. I know its easy, but its not what’s best for you.
3) Realize that our detours are often God’s destinations. The destination is a moving target. The lesson and the goal is the journey itself.
“What seems to be like a pointless or even painful waiting room may be God’s most productive workroom.”
In my life, that maybe is a definitely.
This message was one I definitely “needed” to hear because not only was I failing to find the words to describe my current stage in life, which would, in effect, bring me more clarity and assurance that this was a passing state, but also to rustle my fur and feed the impetus of change and work and “hustle” in my life. No more sitting back on the couch waiting for God to “drop a megachurch on my lap”. Time to get busy. And be happy about it too.
To comment briefly on the progress of my 30 days of Christian music challenge, its only taken a week, but I’ve already realized several things:
1) Christian radio music is BO-ring. Its like drowning under water in a shallow pool, pointless and easily avoidable. No offense Charlotte “Family-friendly” stations, but play some more Elevation or Hillsong every once in a while, please! Michael W. Smith went out with the 80s.
2) Pandora Christian music stations will dangerously veer you into “feel good-almost Christian music-could be about God or my girlfriend” Switchfoot-type music. That is how I tripped up and found myself listening to Ben Rector on NeedtoBreathe station. And yes, NeedtoBreathe counts, ok. If I can’t have that, I don’t know that this whole thing is worth it.
3) No more mood swings. My experiment is proving to support my hypothesis: When I listen to music that caters to my flesh (i.e., Adele-sad/lonely, Techno-excited/pumped/high on life, Rap-punch you out/baller of the hood, Alternative/Indie-i’m too hipster for you/too cool for school/sad/lonely. I can consistently find myself, at least in my thoughts, feeling “positive and encouraged”. I know that’s the slogan of a nearby “Family friendly” radio station, and I always thought it was a bunch of phooey, but it is SO TRUE. I can get out of the roughest, most frustrating meeting or interaction and instantly change my mood. Its awesome. I’ve felt happier lately, not positively joyful or bouncing off the walls or anything, I am still my introverted self, but just like ….nothing can be so bad anymore as to put me in a funk the entire day. It just doesn’t seem worth it anymore, I’d much rather spend my day genuinely content.
4) Even though I trip up and overhear some “non-Christian” music playing in someone’s car, or fail to catch Pandora in time before she plays some – heaven-forbid – mumford & sons, I find myself not wanting to continue listening to it, just because I know what will follow and the alternative is much more satisfying. It may be decent music, not totally flesh-indulging (i.e. JBiebs, omg), but I think this is the start of a long term, life change for me. Of course, I plan on continuing to check out new music, go to shows, and stay ahead of my hipster-wannabe friends (jk i am no hipster), but in the end its not what’s going to drive my moods, and in effect, my attitudes and behavior. It won’t dictate my life. I’m again reminded of the Jews of Jesus’ time, the Pharisees who were admirably well-acquainted with- and strict followers of- the law. But Jesus’ whole gospel lynchpins on the point that striving to obey the law for the law’s sake is futile, you can’t do it because it extends to so much more than just the letter of the law – its the very spirit of the law that you are apt to fail in, being human and all. And so, I find myself failing to live up to every physical challenge I set for myself, my flesh is weak, my self-control is….naught. So that causes me to reflect on the lessons learned and reasoning behind taking on such challenges – and that is that its purpose is to show me that overcoming this challenge in itself will do nothing for me. The destination is an ever moving target. If its not this challenge, its something else, some other way for me to force my body and my flesh and mind into obedience, but God wants us to do it out of love. Out of a consistent and driving desire to please and glorify Him. [Insert carrot and stick analogy] And so, I’d like to say that ends my 30 day challenge, for the public at least as they view me, but for myself, I will continue listening to encouraging, spiritually uplifting music because I want to, and because it instills in me not only hope and encouragement for the day, but a desire to please God in my thoughts, in my attitude, in my words, and in my behavior. You are what you fill yourself with.
5) Fun fact: Awake my soul is a popular lyric found both in Mumford and Sons’ “Awake My Soul” and Hillsong United’s “Awakening”

